Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Convo with Winter

Summer: Imagine I was your thoughts, I would try to be my happiest so you wouldn't feel pain...

Winter: You must be high.

Summer: This coming from the man who said Angels sing to the universe heart beat...

Winter: Touche Summer....its not a bad thing.

Summer: what? Being high?

Winter: You know what I find interesting about lies, Summer?

Summer: ok....what intrest you about lies senor Winter?

Winter: They comfort us.

Summer: They do not. If anything, they make us not trust a person.

Winter: (laughs) yeah, that's most people's response..... look around you. This whole society is a lie, our whole life is a lie.

Summer: What is a lie?

Winter: now you're thinking summer....what is a god damn lie? (Looks at the sky) A man is suppose to have sex with multiple women and if he doesn't have a number count, he's looked at less by his peers; in reality most men, just like women, lie about there number.

Summer: I don't lie about my numbers.

Winter: I wasn't talking about you in general. I'm sure at some point you did...and when you did, you made sure you achieved that number.

Summer: What's your point Winter?

Winter: ah ha! So you did lie?

Summer: What's your point Winter?

Winter: being high isn't a bad thing...

Summer: What in the absolute vodka fuck are you talking about?

Winter: Not sure, can you spark up that joint please?

(Summer lights the joint, takes a hit, passes it to winter.)

Summer: Changing perspectives?

Winter: Yeah, Your Mom's perspectives! Oh!

Summer: Oh grow up old man!

Winter: Lighten up young ironic... (he smiles)

Summer: Are you going to tell me what intrest you about lies?

Winter: oh! Right! No matter what one lies about, there's one common emotion.

Summer: That's a lie, there's multiple reasons one would lie that links to different emotions.

Winter: hmm. You may be right, but all of those lead to one emotion.

Summer: Why can't you just let me be right for once?

Winter: Because when one is right, they're content; hence no change. A season doesn't change by staying the same; even in climates that don't see much  of a difference between weather, there's still a change. So for us humans, we must never feel content, a soild answer maybe, but we should never feel complete...I want you to be different in Autumn, Summer.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Summer Solstice (June21st- Sept 22)

Summer is the season of care free and in human life, is symbolic for human age 19 to 45. In the first part of  Summer, this is usually the onset of parties, vacations, good times, hot weather, so less clothing meaning sex might be on the mind a little more; however Summer is also a major transition and growth season. Usually the fun and games start to taper off about mid August as you get closer to Fall. Summer can be a confusing season because it has a hypnotic spell. During this part of the year, one should be preparing for the harsher part of life so it can be as care free as summer; but actually, one is enjoying the warmth and the ambiance that is summer.

Summer is symbolic to our youth because in our youth, we're still deciding what we want to do; there's no pressure because the attitude of summer is care free, not to mention the long days which give the allusion of day being longer hence the lag on wanting to do things and get you life on the role. A lot of people can get caught in the hypnotic doldrums, the dreamy filter of life summer can present; when this happens, usually by mid to late summer, everything hits you in one shot. This is what they call the Saturn return which usually shows up in one's life starting around 27 and ending at 30. In summer, the signs play a role. You have Gemini ending spring and introducing you to summer, Cancer starting summer, Leo the dominant drive and influence, and Virgo ending your summer and helping you organize for fall.

The planets and stars that our key here are, The moon, The sun, Mercury, (on the Virgo side and Gemini side) Mars and Jupiter, the two planets not as dominant . Each one of these planets in Summer play crucial roles. Mercury is the planet of communication and intellect which shows up introducing you to Summer and conjuncts with the moon. The moon is responsible for care free,  deep intuition, and feeling. In the first part of summer or in youth, this helps one become in individual, expressing how they feel. Mercury is in our skies till the end of June; as Cancer takes over, we become more influenced by the moon; which in youth, is the rise of care free, emotion, and deep intuition. The onset of Summer can be chaotic in a good way because cancer usually smooths out feelings and intuition guides us in the right direction.

As we move through summer, fire sign Leo shows up which in human life is about age 25. It gets tricky here because who we thought we were in cancer, gets thrown out the window. Leo brings the sun (shining light, yet warmth) Jupiter brings, wisdom, expansion which can be associated with graduating from college, an expanded mind and a few lessons learned, and Mars brings vitality, drive, which can be associated with prime and the time of life when we start thinking about kids and starting our career; on the flip side, youth is still dominant and wanting to hit the bars or travel is still an option, it becomes confusing.

Once we hit late summer and the light of Leo and jovial influence of Jupiter take back seat, organized intellectual planet of Mercury shows up again with Saturn and Venus in Virgo. In late summer or in human years mid to late 30's until about 45, we're organizing for later in life. Late summer is the cross roads where youth is still present but nothing compared to when we were in June. Summer comes to an end and who we were in June is a totally different person compared to September. Summer is growth, change, fun, passion, curiosity (but not as much as spring) a tad philosophical because we no longer are influenced by our parents, we've become individuals only for Leo to shine light on who we really are using the hypnotism of summer to ease the shock, and Jupiter's expansion to grow into a new and solid individual. Mercury shows up in compassionate and loving Virgo to connect with Venus for understanding and healing but with stern Saturn to make sure you don't repeat Summers lessons. Welcome to Summer and enjoy.

Monday, June 19, 2017

Jorja Smith - Where Did I Go?

What is love?

I remember the
moment I layed
eyes on you and
I knew it was you

I knew what
to say, I remembered
that feeling as my broken
heart tried to feel love, racing
against time and watching how
things should have played out.

I knew that instant, that something
was off... its rare, that one gets to see
 the time line of their life play out how its
suppose to, its like watching the tracks
and the train go on a different route, one
can only wonder what would've happened....

Something stops
me from conveying
my vision into words,
possibly youth or confused,
possibly to many emotions
are infused, I am blindly in
love with you so my visions
explanation to the heart is
construed, ghastly lies turned
 to romantic lullabies, dreamy
eyes turned into good byes, restless
nights soothed by the moon made for
number sequences and good
morning surprise, like tangled hair
our eyes lock and dive into a dream,
for a second we escape the mean, for
those seconds we are free, for a
moment is just you and me......

Rudely we come
crashing back into
a world of chaos, a
world of turns and
burns, back stabbing
and deceit, greed and
lies, jealous snakes,
zealous fakes, a rebellious
state, we fight for space,
causing havoc for peace,
using the opposite of emotions
to find a right in-between.....
What is love?

Tom Misch & Carmody - So Close - Official Video

Chasser l'amour

 Love doesn't understand material, passion doesn't fulfill wants, only lust fuels greed from what I can see...

I don't know why when you chase money you find love, maybe its because chasing money puts you on so many paths, possibly the numbers are a formula, a language that unlocks the code of love...

math is formulas, chemistry, its solutions, problems, it divides, multiples, adds, subtracts, much like a relationship filled with tears and laughs, kids and romantic baths, an understanding and connection, the only thing that requires perfection yet mistakes are made...

you make it we count the dollars, we dream of a life, this dreamy world of perfection because money... does it lead us to love? Why when one chases money does one find love? Why is it when one chases love one finds money? It's  Like two trains passing each other with passengers wanting to go in the opposite direction of where there going...I don't know why when one chases money one finds love...

Two sides

I dont know why I must fight with you, why you like to stir my emotions, why you like to hurt me, why you take my kindness for weakness, I dont know why...

the moment I strike back and don't nurse the dirt you dished you begin to wish I didn't exist, your eyes flood with tears, you ears drown out sound as the lump in your throat gets tight and your dried damp red eyes swell like if they were wishing wells and your tears were thoughts, its like we transferred emotions and you feel the hurt you call love...

I know its love, I know the cliche Hollywood romance is for the screen of mind, I know you have freeze frame moments, you layed on top of rose pedals surrounded around boquets...

you can't tell something is an addiction until you try to give it up...

what's the difference between love and addiction? Why does love feel like lust? Why does anger feel like hate? I went for a walk in the rain and  people looked at me strange. I realized what I see as a strange look might be someone's look of content. What do emotions look like? Everyone responds differently


Without blue there's no red, without water there's no land, without cats there's no dogs and the list continues...

why does one need the other? How come one can't exist without it? Is it in human nature to rebel? One day I got fed up with my boss and his tyranny and I wanted to throw a tire wrench through his windshield: the irony, I was to the point where I didn't give a fuck if these assholes were going to fire me, but I knew this year was the year that I would hit them with an iron fist but like night to day I realized we have different views but its the same date....

I don't know why when we're sure we're  wrong, and when we're wrong we are right, when we plan it differs, without a plan we bicker and miss the bigger picture, lose the course and we become bitter...

balance is beautiful but it appears everything born from it isn't. As I open all the windows in my house, open the back door, open the front door, the wind ravish through the house when it pleased,  rustling through the trees, carrying sweet scents of distinct flowers and swirling dead leaves....

tranquil by the cool air and the sun playing peek-a-boo behind the clouds, I shut the door to my room only for a gush to push the door open...

I want it closed, the wind opposed, I wanted fresh air in the house, the wind blows, but I close one window and things change...the door closed and the house stayed fresh...what is balance?

Late spring conversing with early spring

Early: what's the difference between psychosis  and religion?

Late: what? Dude, that's soo unappropiate.

Early: It is?

Late: Yes, your basically implying that people who are religious have a mental problem and that's totally not cool.

Early: I wasn't trying to hurt anyone...I was talking to winter and winter said religion doesn't exist and people with psychosis see things that aren't there and---

Late: You were talking to winter? Dude Winter is harsh, cold, and old, of course he would imply religious people are crazy...did you ever think winter is crazy?

Early: why would I think that?

Late: because winter lives for Nostalgic moments and never gives an answer or if Winter gives an answer, he tells you to look with in to find the true meaning or some bullshit that makes no sense. Look, Religion is real, however the stories are kind of questionable.

 Early: I don't get it..

Late: ok, religion exsit. We have artifacts, books, temples, churches, all kinds of real stuff to show religion exist. The stories are questionable but they have meaning.

Early: what's the meaning?

Late: read it dude, besides your too young to understand it.

Early: too young? Your only older than me by a few years.

Late: true, but I comprehend things a little different....look I'll tell you this much early, the stories religion present to us are a guideline, an example of what we should do...just keep reading, trust me you'll begin to change...and by the way, your question is totally unappropiate but sinceits something you're pondering, what do you think the difference between religion and psychosis are?

Autumn conversing with Spring

Spring: what is love?

Autumn: ......its an emotion that's intense, a tad impulsive, its joy, happiness... love changes you and can make you do things you never thought before...

Spring: I don't understand.

Autumn: nobody understands it completely.